Sunday, April 19, 2009

A New Day...

She was unlike most women he had befriended before. He had always been taken in by strong women and she was no less - that unique mix of flamboyance tempered with the rationale of Indian abstinence, arrogance towards the ineptitude of men and society restrained nevertheless with a respect for sensitivities and acceptance of idiosyncrasies, and a fiery passion for independence was the most potent aphrodisiac that could tantalize his senses. Samir was not a complex personality and his dislike for such a representation of his self - an outcome of his inability to avoid the double entendre and express appreciation was not as evident that he would have liked it to be when he thought about it in those moments of nostalgia that he tried hard to occlude. 


It was half past five and he had taken longer than his usual fifteen minutes packing. He looked around the room that had been visiting for close to three years now ever since he took up his new job as Sales Manager of South Zone. He had lived in better places than Hotel Monarch and although Madurai had better offerings, he had developed a close relationship with the Hotel Manager Shambu who had gone out of the way to make his short stays comfortable so much so, that Room 312 was permanently reserved for Samir. "Best room in Madurai Saar" he had proudly proclaimed while taking up Samir's luggage in November 2005. More than the spartan decor, it was Shambu's pride that had genuinely amused Samir as he gently offloaded the night bag and laptop on to the bed and fiddled with the dial on the old BPL TV. When Samir threw the door to the balcony open, it was not difficult to imagine why this room was special. The view of the Gopuram was spectacular, and situated at the right height and distance, it offered a fantastic view of ancient architectural splendor in all its glory. The lighting  that night was spectacular and the festive spirit of the season was captivating. The drum beats and naadasvaram was mildly audible in the background and Samir started smiling involuntarily. "Best room in Madurai Saar. Marriage season favorite honeymoon room" prompted Shambu handing the remote to Samir as he took leave. 


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Like so many things in his life, meeting her was inevitable and he knew it right from the word go. They were dreadfully alike which was partly explained by their similar backgrounds and they were a powerful couple when together. They did not need to compliment each other, because they possessed the same measure of everything in their personalities and they were the kind of people who could take away any gathering by storm due to the intensity of their being. What one thought, the other understood and conversation between them was minimal and restricted to a few words. To any careful observer it was a show of ethereal understanding between a couple and it was always unnerving yet captivating for Shambu to observe them from close quarters. He seized every opportunity to serve them even if it meant personally carrying water to Room 312. 


"Both of us will check out tomorrow morning" said Samir entering Monarch that night at 8 p.m.. 


"How was the darshan Saar", enquired Shambu trying to detect if they had really enjoyed the trip into the city. 


"Very good, Thank You", he said and she smiled approvingly at his choice of the place, route and driver for their evening. 


"Anything else you would require for the night Saar?" 


"No. I will settle all bills together tomorrow if it is ok with you" replied Samir. 


"No problem. Good night to you two" beamed Shambu. 


They took the stairs as usual walking side by side with many pairs of eyes following their graceful exit from the foyer, each looking to be deep in thought. They entered the room together and she immediately walked out to the balcony to watch the ceremonies.  The festive season was officially coming to an end that night and celebrations had attained peak fervor. Samir followed her and they stood together for close to 30 minutes waiting for the ceremonies to end and the procession to start. The moment was an involuntary trigger for both of them and when it came, they were naturally prepared for it. He looked at her and they smiled at each other as they entered the room hand-in-hand. 


It was a night that they would never forget. Never had both been so spent and when the early morning activities in the temple started again they finally closed their eyes for the day. 


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"When will you be here next Saar"? quizzed Shambu as he zipped his overnight bag shut. "Should I get some breakfast packed for you?" he continued without waiting for an answer. 


"Breakfast will not be required Shambu. You take care of yourself and your family. Here is my card with my personal number written on the backside. Please call me when your daughter is getting married ok?" said Samir. 


"Sir, I will call you as soon as I find a suitable boy. But when will you be coming here next" asked Shambu, anxious now at the quantum of words being spoken by Samir. 


"I will come here to attend your daughter's marriage Shambu", said Samir smiling at him like never before. He was done with Madurai and could never get himself to come to the city anymore. "Never again unless unavoidable" was not something he wanted to tell the Hotel Manager who had been his friend for the last three years. 


He returned a smile at the Air Hostess at the Security Gate who had recognized him from the many past journeys in the same route. It was a short trip to Chennai and he hoped to get some sleep when airborne. It was a busy day tomorrow and he wanted to set some aggressive targets for the next quarter. He drifted to sleep thinking about the wonderful time spent and people he had met in Madurai over the last three years. 


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The mild jerk when the pilot hit the brakes of the Embraer Jet woke up Samir. The short nap had done him more good than he had expected and he began to realize that the Madurai chapter in his life was well on its way to an end. Neither did he feel remorse or pain, nor did he feel any vestiges of anticipation at the new challenges that lay ahead in his new role and a new city. It was almost as if he was conditioned for all that had happened over the last three years and it was something he felt uneasy about. 


"Would you like anything else Sir?" asked the Air Hostess, poised alongside Samir and helping an old lady with her cabin baggage.  


"Not really. But thank you for offering" replied Samir before moving on to deplane leaving the Air Hostess staring at his back. 


As Samir walked down the foyer of Terminal 2, he switched his mobile on and started reading the messages that he missed over the last hour of travel. He quickly replied to most of them in his traditional cursory way and instructed his staff to make bookings for his travel over the week. If there was one thing he found amusing about air-travellers it was their impatience in receiving their checked-in baggage. The fastest people to rush into the Terminal were ironically the business travelers who determinedly found their way to the front of the Baggage Belt, only to wait for the longest. As if in response to their eagerness, the first baggage to appear on the belt was the holiday travelers' big bags and to add salt to their injuries of having been ignored in-spite of appearing earlier at the Belt, the baggage suddenly stopped spewing luggage. The rhythmic motion of the empty decade old Belt unnerved a few of them and one of them started opening the flap of the Belt at the entrance and peering in to hurry the Airline Staff to process their bags faster. Frantic activity like this for retrieving luggage unnerved the rest of passengers who started hissing and cursing the Airline who charged a premium but acted low-cost. The animosity towards the Airline started brewing as minutes ticked by and the premium travelers started using the most premium of abuses vilifying the parentage of the owners, promoters and airline staff who operated the Airline as a rundown brothel. 


Samir started sipping his coffee a few meters away watching the scene in amusement as the the belt next to his started humming. An announcement for the next flight followed and Samir jerked in anticipation. It was a flight he was waiting for and would have done so even if his baggage had arrived on time. He quickly finished his coffee as the travelers from the latest flight started pouring into the Terminal. 


The sensation was there as he come come to realize and expect. Her presence was always obvious to him even before their eyes had met and physical proximity was no precursor for their meeting. It was a strong force that bound them together and the locus of this magnetic influence on each other was as reserved for them as it was incomprehensible and inexplicable through thought or words. It was just moments before they visually met and whenever it happened there was a rapid exchange of emotions that preceded and expended the need for words.


She walked down slowly and determinedly with each step measured and calculated, constantly looking at him and talking to the person next to her mentally processing two different streams of communication. He continued to look at her understanding most of what she was saying but missing out increasingly due to the other thoughts that were going on in his mind. He finally broke conversation with her and glanced to her right, looking at her companion from college days, the person who had helped her reach where she was - someone whose encouragement, love and maturity was paramount for the stability that had been brought to her life and she loved him like she loved no one else and never could. Samir found himself evaluating her companion and jerked himself awake - he had never done this and did not want to start thinking on those lines. He glanced back at her and looked away thinking about whatever had happened. 


"Are you ready or would you like some more time to organize your conflicting thoughts and emotions"? said a voice from close by and Samir snapped back to reality, smiling in recognition. 


She was unlike most women he had befriended before. He looked back to see that she was no longer there and smiled again. 


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Saturday, April 4, 2009

0.5 * MBA

Its been a remarkable one year in pursuit of managerial excellence. We have been living the much desired Great Indian Dream to study at the premier Indian Institutes setup by Nehru in the 60s; envisioned to be the gurukulas to develop our brahmastras of technical superiority and global competitiveness. We read all that was to be read - Levitt, Porter, Hamel and many more. We juggled not two but even three jobs at one time even in the wee hours of early morning privacy. Being trained for a truly global world where the boundaries fade and the disciplines converge, we also alt+tabbed our way through projects on Strategy, Market Research and IPO Valuation at one go. We dared to think beyond IIMS and started naming our chickens before they were conceived. We went further eastward and tried our hand at Live Case Study contests organized by upcoming Singaporean companies in well, Singapore. We then crisscrossed back to Swadesh to give something back to our homeland and won a B-School (Did you know what the B actually stood for? ) Stock Picking contest without investing a single rupee. We escorted and hosted some big names in the industry and academia to campus. We heard, got motivated and felt better that a few still had faith in our abilities to lead the future because we were scared we might have to go out and claim thus. We did all this and much more.

We rose above the normal. We realized that there was a life beyond the mundane existence and acceptance of the status quo. We wanted to achieve elevated levels of comprehension, recognition and appreciation. We battered, bruised, abused our bodies to staying awake and determining the NPV of billion dollar investments in uncertain environments. We devised distribution strategies for the biggest of FMCGs, deduced inconsistencies in the Vision and Mission statements for Fortune 500 companies and deciphered the "hidden" agenda in every deal (Thanks to Prof RC). We revisited the greatly depressing Great Depression of the 1920s and debated into the night as to how we can get out of the current crisis with good jobs and fat pay packets. We took a novel approach and deduced that Pay Packet & Success = F (Expectation, Competency Realization, Subjugation, Obama, Luck) We did all this and much more.

Its been a roller coaster ride and thats as true as saying this statement sounds so fake. If there is one thing that you definitely learn - it is the recognition of the enormity of all that is to be learnt for improvement and progress. It is in this pursuit that we slog on for the remainder of this journey of two years with humility and focus.

P.S: If you are a BSchool aspirant, read twice before you rush into any conclusions after the first 2 paras :)

P.P.S: What was this post for. Damn! I dint want to write something like this. At this rate, I will need kilos of alkali to neutralize you know what..



Friday, January 23, 2009

The 3 mistakes of my life

Hold on.. Neither is this a tribute nor a satire of the book by Chetan Bhagat. Apart from not having any time to write something substantially complex and confusing to sound profound on the book (which is quite impossible to be fair to the book), I personally dont give a shit to his books. The only one of the bestsellers of his that I forced myself to read was the above mentioned due to unforeseen circumstances. Quiet naturally due to strict negative inner reinforcement, I was genuinely and completely biased by the time I started flipping through the pages. This was about a year back I suppose. A lot has changed since then - the economic slowdown around the world, the "demise" of investment banking (the last straw for this company was hiring me as an intern during April-May 2009), Barack Obama, Slumdog Millionaire (and the ever growing love, fascination and respect for Indian slums) and bail-outs - even the porn industry wants a $5 billion "stimulus" to revive "sagging" demand. Charged with our knowledge of macroeconomics fundae, Keynes and Engles, a couple of us undertook a research study on determining the effects of such a stimulus package on reviving demand for porn and sex. After careful analysis through quantitative and quantitative techniques (aided by few pegs of a banned substance), we arrived at graphs showing a relationship. Unfortunately, the model was too complex to be understood for others the next morning due to the extensive  curves and contours dotting the entire landscape of the paper. Thus came the demise of our first real thought provoking work. Undaunted by such unacceptability, we have vowed to come back stronger with more insightful and revolutionary work. 

So here I was thinking back on recent times and short term capital gains and losses (aww screw this bschool terminology) and I was reminded that I had a blog which was so ironically named point blank shot. Coming to think of it, the only thing main point about my blog is that it is blank most of the times and I shot myself in the foot naming it thus. But those important things aside, I realized when I had so much content about screw-ups in my life why look beyond! Now came the bigger problem - how should I choose? The simplest way of doing this would be period wise and I realized that I should take the short-sighted approach and thus chose the recent 12 months. Post this classification and problem definition, I was left to evaluate alternatives. This exercise took me close to 20 hours since last night when I started with the first line of this masterpiece..

Practicality (cynicism?)
Aspired attribute widely regarded as a sign of growing maturity, balance, control, poise and the likes - for me it signals an end to dreams. You stop fantasizing about those impossible things, you are going to stop trying. If you thought you could do 100 and you were good enough for and did only 40 and you continue to think that you can do 100 or even 120 the next time - you are all set according to me (with my limited experience and knowledge). Somehow dreaming about these impossible things has drastically come down and I may call it practicality and realization of constraints. If it had/has come with a more than compensatory share of the complementary attributes, I  cannot be too unhappy right ;)

Not going for it
It was there for me. I had travelled all for it. I had to do it because it was time for it. There had to be a decision made and a delay just amounted to pushing an important issue on the back-burner. I was prepared, both for the best and the worst. There were no dry runs on this. No one could teach you, and if you had prior experience it was not something that was valued too highly. I still did not go for it. 

Blogging
Thats the funniest. Blogging has been symbolic of all the wrongs, all those things that have been given an eager start only to fizz out over time. Its been easier to defend it with the trite lack of time reason. How much time does it take to pen down one's thoughts..to reflect on the happenings around..to voice one's views..to cogitate.. to learn..to finish what one has committed to in the past etc. It is injustice done to one's own self...

But practically speaking, I need to get some sleep now, and stop rambling :)


Friday, October 31, 2008

October Quota

As can be guessed, I sheepishly post on the last day of this wonderful month in which I was born around 24 years back in order to keep up my promise of being a regular blogger (my first post suffering from a constricted flow of creative juices)...

Lot has been happening over the last month...As they say, Second Term at B-School is different from the first in that you get accustomed to the routine..I have gotten used to sleeping at 5 and waking up at 9.20 for classes at 9.30...I improved upon my record by waking up once at 9.31 and was in class at 9.34...Funny thing is there is goddamned competition everywhere over here..I had a race with 2 more buggers but overtook them thanks to my long legs...One was very obviously disadvantaged due to his bulk, but unfortunately that is how sad life is...Thankfully there aint no relative grading for attendance in who comes at what time to class, else the scene might have just got dirtier...

One more oft quoted refrain is that you would gradually realize where you want to go in life over these months..I can promise and swear that I have absolutely no bias towards FMCG Marketing or Supply Chain Management or iBanking (whatever of it is left over)

I am open to all..

I am here for the learning, not for the grades..Sigh! 






Thursday, September 18, 2008

1/6th MBA

Back home for my first term vacations..As the nick says it am 1/6th through with this course..

Lotsa pleasant memories from the first 2 months at IIMI. Notable among them are:

1) I could finally balance my B/S :D ...(This new method taught by Prof Kanagaraj is too cool..You put an entry here and you put one on the other side..Presto! B/S is no more BS

2) Organizational behavior is a wunderffful subject and the only one where you dont need to pre-read (Its a different issue that there are no marks for CP and interestingly the one subject that generates the maximum CP )

Many events coming up over the next term starting off with the Indore Marathon on 2nd October 2008. If you are around the area, dont miss it!

Go here to register for the Marathon -> www.indoremarathon.com

Adios!